By Shekita Steele, RN

It was 5:00 am, and I sat in my bed getting ready for another shift. I just didn’t feel right. My chest felt tight, my eyes burned from lack of sleep, and for the first time in my nursing career, I couldn’t make myself push through the fatigue.

I wasn’t sick. My body worked fine. But my mind and heart were completely depleted.

The night before, I had finished charting late, came home to a sink full of dishes, and still tried to squeeze in time to help my children with homework. My phone buzzed with text reminders for another mandatory training and a double shift opening that “really needed coverage.” I remember thinking, maybe if I just push through one more day. But that morning , something inside me whispered, You can’t do this, it’s not fair to your patients. 

So, I called out.

At first, I felt a wave of guilt wash over me. I imagined my coworkers picking up my assignment, my patients wondering where I was. The old voice in my head started up: You’re a bad nurse for not showing up.

I brewed a cup of coffee, and sat outside. No alarms, no rushing, no noise. Just silence and sunlight. I realized that this pause, this stillness, wasn’t a sign of weakness. It was recovery.

By the next day, my shoulders weren’t as heavy. My compassion felt genuine again. And when I returned to the unit, I was more focused, patient, and present than I had been in weeks.

That’s when it clicked: taking a mental health day doesn’t make you a bad nurse, it makes you a sustainable one.

We spend so much time teaching others about health, yet we often forget to prioritize our own. Nursing is a profession of heart, but even the strongest hearts need rest.

So if you ever find yourself sitting and questioning your worth because you need a day to breathe, please know this: the world won’t fall apart if you take time to rest. But you just might if you don’t.

Take the day. Refill your cup. You and your patients deserve the best version of you.

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